Manna Moment: 05/23/19
Time: 5:07am – 5:57am
Just woke up from a dream that really disturbed me. I was in church and headed to sit down. It was one seat left where I normally sat and a (really) big man was sitting side ways blocking me from getting the seat. He was sitting next to a woman (I’m guessing his wife) and I said excuse me can I sit here? He began to laugh and say…Nah…Nah I can’t move…my wife and I right here. I got so livid! I was sooo mad…because that was my seat. I’m just standing there pulling this idk…I guess it was luggage. It was some type of a pull case with wheels…. So I pulled the thing behind me as I began to walk off…mad that I couldn’t sit in my usual spot. Therefore, I’m going up the isles looking for another place to sit before service starts. I came all the way up to the front almost and passed the pulpit area (it seems) and started down another isle next to a wall. I saw a row of seats and I sat down. I glanced behind me and I saw people I knew. Elder TK and looked like Brother Al. I waved to them…as I got nestled into my seat getting ready for the word, the preaching…the service to start. All of a sudden, Elder TK said, “Have you been downstairs?” I said no not yet…she was telling me what all they had down there and that I should go…but it’s how it was said. It’s really how her personality is though…nothing odd about that…what I mean is…she said…have you been downstairs yet (giving her big beautiful smile)? I said no. Not yet, she said, you should (just smiling from ear to ear, as she spoke). Then she got up, said come on, and began to tell me a few things they had down there.
As we headed downstairs…I began to pass by rows and rows of people. I’m waving…speaking as I left. When we finally got downstairs, I saw all kinds of stuff…food and food galore. Then it was clothes…you name it everything for your picking. People were picking things out…but it seems we were confused because we didn’t know how many of the things we could get…if it was a limit or not. Then a woman came over to the freezer case…it was Mother Janice and she said…is it in there? You see it she stated when we asked how many or if we could get it…we said yeah…then she said get it…it’s in there. If it’s in there…you see it…you can get it. I went and got a buggy then and started selecting items. So I’m down there a long time…not even aware of the time….I’m just picking up sooo much food…making sure to get the good stuff, making sure not to miss a thing.
Just as I reached like another warehouse door, I saw juice…and I began to crawl up there and get some of that…it was snacks like chips and stuff there too. I grabbed it all. As I was grabbing stuff…I began to think about my pull case in the church upstairs…I noticed it was (really) dark now and I’d come down while it was light out. I started to think…if I would be able to get my case, who can I call, how can I get it, or if the church was unlocked? Then everything around me started to slow down…and I began to be aware of a few things. I came downstairs to get items I felt were a deal. I felt were a necessity. I woke up feeling terrible. I felt simply terrible. I heard, “Didn’t I tell you not to worry about these things? Not what you should eat…not what you should drink…not what you should wear?” I began to think…I’ve allowed things to pull me out of the church and downstairs to go through items, goods, etc. during church and I could’ve gotten that after service. I noticed how it seemed I was waving bye to the people when I was walking away instead of saying hello. It could’ve all waited.
Moreover, my mind was brought back to the big man blocking my seat…while I was waving…speaking…he was laughing…profusely as I passed down the aisle headed out the church. Why was this face…this expression so important for me to remember? I thought about the words I heard when I woke up. “Didn’t I tell you not to worry about these things? Not what you should eat…not what you should drink…not what you should wear?” It hit me…Matthew 6. It was one of the very first scriptures that hit me like a ton of rocks when the Lord pointed it out to me (back in 2006/2007) in my old home in Hueytown. That memory rushed back so clear…as if it was happening right now. I remember being shown that scripture in my bedroom…reading it…and breaking down…just screaming and crying.
I thought back about this dream…I allowed what my natural needs were to pull me out of the church and get on my own. Pick on my own. Yes, it was being provided to me in what it seemed like the basement of the church. However, the point is…it was beneath the church…out of the church…away from the church! All a huge distraction! A huge distraction, and the fact that I was led out by the familiar. Someone I knew…to get something I felt I needed…and seeing people I knew get things too…but at what expense? To be disconnected? I began to feel sad and I thought….I’m disconnected!!! How did this happen? How have this happened? Sad part is…I didn’t see it…truly…until now. So many things have consumed me lately…that I don’t know if I’m coming or going…or how to get a handle on it. And the big man laughing…blocking my usual way…my usual seat…was the enemy redirecting my focus and he was laughing…cause I was just waving…cheesing…laughing…being led away and not even knowing it. I see it now Lord. I see it. I get it. Light overpowers darkness. Sometimes darkness tries it’s best to outsmart being seen…but light shines and illuminates those places every time…the key is…we have to stay in the light. Even when light shines on us and reminds us of where we should be…we should be in place to receive the light. Shine on! Shine on! Shine on me! Thank you Lord. Thank you Father!
Just how many of us are simply out of place? We are out of place and not even know it!
Take a moment and just think about it, were you led out of place?
Do you see it?
Can you see it?
Let the light SHINE & MOVE!